Anticipation

wow..it's been 5 years already? seriously?!

On Saturday, Joe and I are headed to Mansfield, Massachusetts to see Phish, our beloved band. Five years ago, we said our goodbyes at a very emotional, muddy festival in Coventry, Vermont.

"For the sake of clarity, I should say that this is not like the hiatus, which was our last attempt to revitalize ourselves. We're done." - Trey Anastasio

Five years ago, Trey made this announcement. Our hearts were filled with sadness. I cried a lot that summer. I remember being at Saratoga Performing Arts Center and just crying hysterically: possibly the LAST Runaway Jim I'd ever hear live. Oddly, it was, even though we were at Coventry. We hadn't made it in in time for Jim. We were lucky to be there at all. Never did I imagine that I'd be trekking my way 3 states away again to see this band that I love so very much. Of course I'd hoped to, but I didn't think we'd be so lucky!

So five years has passed. And where do I find myself today? I've got a new job. I've been here for 3 years. I love it very much. We have a son. A son! Patrick will be a year old in August...my how a year has flown! I have a different car. I was hit 3 years ago at an intersection. I loved my old car. It was the last thing my mother had essentially left me. My father has passed away. At the age of 32, I have had to bury both of my parents. This makes me feel very old.

Five years is a long time. I feel like a new person. I'm very much looking forward to this weekend. I'm looking forward to sharing what is really a big piece of me with my son. I'm sure he'll love it just as much as we do.

See you at Phish!